Going Under

What is this life without you
Gone into the abyss so blue
Disappearing a dark shadow against waves
Everyone telling me your so brave.
They come by my house hands full of food
Like since your death that would be in my mood
Sitting in front of a mirror chewing its essence like a light
I would rather go down without a fight.
I watch the children play on the swing
They always remind me why I wear this ring
Their eyes so full of life and love
Makes me curse whatevers above.
I ask myself are you gone because of me
I wonder why there are times I do feel free
My soul will soar high into the sky
But other times I just want to die.
My confusion ends at the end of everyday
When I watch them sleep their lives away
And I know their dreams are full of wonder
This is what keeps me from going under.