Going Under

What is this life without you
Gone into the abyss so blue
Disappearing a dark shadow against waves
Everyone telling me your so brave.
They come by my house hands full of food
Like since your death that would be in my mood
Sitting in front of a mirror chewing its essence like a light
I would rather go down without a fight.
I watch the children play on the swing
They always remind me why I wear this ring
Their eyes so full of life and love
Makes me curse whatevers above.
I ask myself are you gone because of me
I wonder why there are times I do feel free
My soul will soar high into the sky
But other times I just want to die.
My confusion ends at the end of everyday
When I watch them sleep their lives away
And I know their dreams are full of wonder
This is what keeps me from going under.

This World Inside Her mind

To fake the silence and the pain

She sits alone in the smoke

He sees her smile not her shame

Not one meaningful word spoke.

They stumbled through the crowded bar

Her hand against his hand

They kiss without love in this cramped car

She knows what he demands.

Is this what I dreamed about

She asks herself in vain

Knowing swimming in these doubts

Only causes more pain.

So she closes her eyes as his hands touch her skin

She imagines being lost at sea

Waves so blue they wash away her sin

And for once she will be happy you will see.

But Then The Rain Came

A cat waltzed down the street,

It's tale high in the air,

It's glowing green eyes sees everything,

But the rain doesn't seem to care.

It's trickles down my face tonight,

My skin as hot as day,

I lifted my head to the forgiving sky,

Wondering if I could fly away.

A full moon sat mockingly in the desperate sky,

It's face as white as snow,

I looked away not wanting it to laugh at me,

And embraced what the wind had to show.

I walked down the street afraid to see,

A future I was not certain to be,

But I would have to face it for me,

And maybe for once I would be free.

A Dance in the Night

She dances alone in the moonlight,

As the song bird catches her hair,

The stars shine so bright,

But her heart beats with despair.

A mind of logic disappears,

For pain she can not bare,

She is left with tragic fear,

Her midnight eyes a blank stare.

Once these wrinkled hands held love,

And touched a many souls,

These eyes saw beauty as she looked above,

Now they are empty and old.

But dance she may as the wind whispers,

A name which one night will be lost,

The wind so cold it makes her shiver,

The leaves a gentle frost.

"Goodnight my love" the wind sings,

As she dances into the trees,

Upon her back grows wings,

And forever she will be free.

Light and Dark Once More

There is no time in the sun,

Only light and dark,

When one life ends is it done

Or can we ignite a spark?

To be born alone in this mess,

Travel the earth for this soul,

Sometimes I wonder I must confess,

Does this pain have its toll?

Why do we feel such loneliness,

With billions of us here,

Why can't we embrace

Instead of causing such tears?

Why do I feel such hatred,

Toward others here with me,

I wish I could knock down this barrier,

That never should be.

Let me hold you before I die,

And never can I touch you again,

Let me see it in your eyes,

The places that you have been.

Then maybe as the sun sets,

I can release all my pain,

Into the water and let it wash

Away this ugly stain.

The Hate She Gave

Once a girl stood by the side

And watched the city burn

The fire rose so very high

And she knew it was her turn.

So she made her way into the flames

Allowed the fire to consume

The little bit that was left to blame

For the hate that enveloped the fumes.

Could it wipe away

The violence she so dearly created

Was it us to make her stay

And walk into this fate?

So let the fire rise so high

And smile at your just ways

Let the smoke float into the sky

As long as you get to stay.

The Frightened Little Sparrow

The frightened little sparrow refused to fly

As the cold wind rushed past his tree

He stood on the edge shaking determined to try

To force himself to fly free.

He lifted a wing felt the wind blow fast

But his fear began to soar high

He knew there was something hidden in the past

And he ceased any chance to try.

So there he stood afraid and alone

The branch so high in the air

He stood so still his feet like stone

And his heart full of despair.

Who is he a sparrow who can't fly,

All the others would be ashamed,

In his heart he wished he would die,

But who was he to blame?

So night strolled in with the vicious wind,

And the sparrow stood once again on the tree,

A determination filled his once stricken heart,

And a new hope would set him free.